Cleaned up Shop a little bit. hence, many posts deleted

Yes I had to. I just don't want some shit on the internet. Anyways the last week has been uncomfortable. I didn't know that it was from weed "withdrawals" which I find to be fucking insanely hard to deal with and manage on a normal day. Which is why I haven't had contact with the whole world-besides stores, doc's appointments and through phone- for the past 6 days! Symptoms include: 1. Anxiety (general term) --- but so many things make up the whole sum of my anxiety. Including: when I wake up I'm sweaty, I want to sleep non stop, I'm feeling a detachment from reality, disorientation, thinking I have the flu or some sort of fever, having NO WORDS to describe it to others-the weird detachment from reality thing. These were actually all listed on many websites crazily to account for what many people deal with from not having their fix, if you will. They were all trying to quit. I just couldn't leave my house, which is why I didn't get any. Haha

It feels a LOT better to know that I'm probably suffering from these things because of not smoking for a little over a week after smoking for a long-ass time everyday. Relief Jackpot! I still feel many of the symptoms, but the sense of feeling like I will never figure out what's causing them has decreased quite a bit. The next question is, was I really that "detached from reality" that my dumb ass couldn't logically guess that hey, maybe this is the problem? I had considered EVERY OTHER POSSIBLE REASON for it- like wtf? But it has been an extremely cloudy 5 days, mentally and physically. It's been weird and I said out loud (to myself-) that I felt like I was in a different dimension and it SUCKEDDDDD. Which is actually a strangely accurate description.

Anyways, I am so grateful for this little, um.....revelation? And I will take this as a very likely cause of my little fucking episodes that have crippled me throughout the week. Yay!